One Year To A Better Me

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My name is unnecessary. I have a year before i go to college, I will make a healthier, happier me. ...Links to my journeys are above, follow back :) --------- FOR THE HARD TIMES: "Even at your worst, you are fucking incredible." -Buddy Wakefield.


Sometimes i feel like a victim

Sometimes i dont,
Today i do…
The first guy i ever thought i loved convinced me to let several of his friends rape me, including himself, repeatedly…
I was young and naive and they were all over 18..
They ruined me…
I hate myself, I now only feel like guys should abuse me.
I dont feel like I deserve anything more than that..
I have a boyfriend who completely loves me and I’ll never understand why..
It hurts..
I hurt… And I hurt those around me.
No one will be able to underetand me…

And no amount of talking about it will change this..
Its who I am now.
The slut he made of me is all I am now..
Im sorry.

#tw: rape  #rape victim  #about me  #not good enough 
"It was a catch-22: If you didn’t put the trauma behind you, you couldn’t move on. But if you did put the trauma behind you, you willingly gave up your claim to the person you were before it happened."
 - Jodi Picoult (via trueconfessionsofarapesurvivor)
#1373

confessionsofarapevictim:

I don’t consider myself a survivor, see I did not survive. I died that night.

xxrayyshellxx:

I took the blame.
I didn’t tell anyone because no one would believe me..

I didn’t tell anyone because I didn’t want to believe it myself..

I thought if I didn’t speak of it, if I didn’t acknowledge it, then maybe it didn’t really happen, maybe I would forget, maybe I would be able to move on..

arachnids8rip:

fuckheaded:

Clearly she wears those short skirts and skimpy tank tops because she wants the d. and by d I mean vitamin d. she wants to soak up as much sun as she can. because revealing clothes are not an invitation for sex u prick

and the award for unexpected turns goes to

(Source: zerogoukki, via beastlywitches)

hedlunds:

im tired of things costing money

(via capedcods)

64kbps:

soulja boy tell em. im too shy

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dylanthescientist:

princetanaka:

just a small town girl. Living in a racist, insensitive, sexist, homophobic world,

(cant take the midnight train ‘cause im fuckin scared)

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